Took the blood test.
Felt very low. Spoke to the nurse about the brown spotting. She said not to worry as there are cases of more red blood since mine is only brownish n not a lot.
Was fighting tears when she drawn out the blood
Yesterday, finally went to toilet at 1am after holding on to urinate since 8+pm.
Was expecting blood, but nope. The spotting remains as light brown and little.
But as wiped down there, there's tiny trace of redness.
Went to bed crying. As i hope the morning when i woke up, it wont be full flow with cramps.
As morning came, husband was sweet knowing im feeling dejected, offered to bathe together so he cab take a look at d stain.
Took a deep breathe abd pulled duwn the undies.
The stain remained as last night. Slight brownish. My hooe were lifted a bit. But as i wiped down, traces of red abd then. One tiny red clump came out. Small dot.
Crossing fingers that the result will be a BFP.
Nurse said if bleeding could be d progesterone not strong so need to give immemediate support.
Help me.
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June 13, 2012
Only one more day
Before cinema, went to the toilet and saw a tiny bits of brownish stain.
Could be d debris from Crinone gel. After movie, after shower as i wiped down - more brownish stain.
:'(
Felt awful in the toilet.
Inserted Crinone gel n saw traces of brownish stain.
Which means, inside somewhere is bleeding?
So sad.
What will the outcome of tomorrow be?
Am scared to go urinate.
Scared to find if the pad will have red stain on it.
Red would definitely means menses.
Told Mat and he's not that optimistic too on the outcome.
Why?
Why?
Why?
All has been good this far and suddenly this appears? As much as its assuring that im healthy with menses every month, i really wishes for it not to come this month.
I went through a LOT.
Its not just the 3x of IVF, everything. Coz of IVF, i got severe OHSS which made me bloated n my stomach looks preggy when its not. My hair is thinning due to the surgery(s). There are now railway tracks on the hairline.
Am ashamed to go back office again with no news. Felt that i let my bosses down. How can i ask to go for another IVF since all 3 failed? The agony that another colleague has to cover my scope makes me shamed.
I really hope this brown stain is an implantation bleeding. But its day 15, how can it be implantation bleeding when implantation occurs Day 5/6?
Im scared for tomorrow
Hope the HCG reading is high and all this is just a dream.
Could be d debris from Crinone gel. After movie, after shower as i wiped down - more brownish stain.
:'(
Felt awful in the toilet.
Inserted Crinone gel n saw traces of brownish stain.
Which means, inside somewhere is bleeding?
So sad.
What will the outcome of tomorrow be?
Am scared to go urinate.
Scared to find if the pad will have red stain on it.
Red would definitely means menses.
Told Mat and he's not that optimistic too on the outcome.
Why?
Why?
Why?
All has been good this far and suddenly this appears? As much as its assuring that im healthy with menses every month, i really wishes for it not to come this month.
I went through a LOT.
Its not just the 3x of IVF, everything. Coz of IVF, i got severe OHSS which made me bloated n my stomach looks preggy when its not. My hair is thinning due to the surgery(s). There are now railway tracks on the hairline.
Am ashamed to go back office again with no news. Felt that i let my bosses down. How can i ask to go for another IVF since all 3 failed? The agony that another colleague has to cover my scope makes me shamed.
I really hope this brown stain is an implantation bleeding. But its day 15, how can it be implantation bleeding when implantation occurs Day 5/6?
Im scared for tomorrow
Hope the HCG reading is high and all this is just a dream.
June 11, 2012
Countdown to final result
Pee-d on the stick this morning. Just had a thought to just do it since i bought the stick already. The stick and its generations seems not to like me. Everytime its always show a single line.
Haiz.
Whats new?
I dont actually feel sad. As i dont really have any feeling when i peed on it. I was in urgency to urinate so was a relief to end it all.
Told Mat the result, he said not to care about the result as this Thursday result would be more comprehensive and better result. Which i think is true also la.
I REALLY hope they can detect a high HCG level to determine that this 3rd ivf is a success. Otherwise, i'll feel dejected having to answer to those surrounding me on the failure again. Taking a 3rd week of hospitalization leave and having my work being covered by someone and at the end of it, i got no happy news to share on the outcome - just dont feel good.
At least if its a BFP result, those 3weeks of me missing from office will justify sweetly.
One more day to countdown. Tomorrow, lucky Mat will be having his IPPT and will be hope halfday so can spent the day with me. before we go down on Thursday morning for the final countdown.
Uber nervous ^.^
Haiz.
Whats new?
I dont actually feel sad. As i dont really have any feeling when i peed on it. I was in urgency to urinate so was a relief to end it all.
Told Mat the result, he said not to care about the result as this Thursday result would be more comprehensive and better result. Which i think is true also la.
I REALLY hope they can detect a high HCG level to determine that this 3rd ivf is a success. Otherwise, i'll feel dejected having to answer to those surrounding me on the failure again. Taking a 3rd week of hospitalization leave and having my work being covered by someone and at the end of it, i got no happy news to share on the outcome - just dont feel good.
At least if its a BFP result, those 3weeks of me missing from office will justify sweetly.
One more day to countdown. Tomorrow, lucky Mat will be having his IPPT and will be hope halfday so can spent the day with me. before we go down on Thursday morning for the final countdown.
Uber nervous ^.^
June 8, 2012
Day 12
Weighted. Eeks. 60.5kg!
Must be coz i ate a lot yesterday. Ate 3 rice meals n during movie time, im able to finish popcorn even before Madasgascar was half-time :0
Normally, i cannot finish that regular sized popcorn. At most half.
Maybe Cathay's popcorn tasted better yesterday??
Today. Am feeling a bit of dizziness again. Mat asked if want to eat KFC but that thought of KFC just flashed "yucks". But i love chicken.
Must be coz i ate a lot yesterday. Ate 3 rice meals n during movie time, im able to finish popcorn even before Madasgascar was half-time :0
Normally, i cannot finish that regular sized popcorn. At most half.
Maybe Cathay's popcorn tasted better yesterday??
Today. Am feeling a bit of dizziness again. Mat asked if want to eat KFC but that thought of KFC just flashed "yucks". But i love chicken.
June 7, 2012
Day 11: Questioned the Questions
Today, am feeling a bit low.
Been having thoughts about many Qs.
The thoughts are never ending.
Felt a bit dizzy going on with the head. The throat is like forever thirsty. The throat also feels like a bit nausea.
Thing is, im very bad with feeling. I'm a heck-care attitude when it comes to body feeling. Believe me, until now - i don't really know much of my incoming menses's symptoms. My husband would normally detect and will say "i think your menses soon as you normally will feel cold, feverish or puked." and he's correct.
Chia-lat. Don't even know my own body symptoms. I do know la, its only that i can only predict it on the menses's eve. Before that, I'll be still thinking its not menses yet.
Yesterday, the TCM physician took a longer reading at my pulse. Saying that she detected a weak signal and is trying to read it. Erk?
She asked if i felt breast tenderness? Er, no.
Dont even feel like typing any post initially. Sat at the laptop and stared blankly which url to go. Just wanna lie on bed and stare at any dvds.
Gosh. Still got one more week :(
Been having thoughts about many Qs.
"Is it all good when until now there is no spotting sighted ever since the ET (Embryo Transfer)?"
" Are you two embryo(s) doing okay?"
"Is this normal feeling im feeling normal"
"after day 11, what should i be experiencing? cramps? breast tender? whutt???"
"been feeling dehydrated since yesterday, am i depriving the embryo(s) of liquid?"
The thoughts are never ending.
Felt a bit dizzy going on with the head. The throat is like forever thirsty. The throat also feels like a bit nausea.
Thing is, im very bad with feeling. I'm a heck-care attitude when it comes to body feeling. Believe me, until now - i don't really know much of my incoming menses's symptoms. My husband would normally detect and will say "i think your menses soon as you normally will feel cold, feverish or puked." and he's correct.
Chia-lat. Don't even know my own body symptoms. I do know la, its only that i can only predict it on the menses's eve. Before that, I'll be still thinking its not menses yet.
Yesterday, the TCM physician took a longer reading at my pulse. Saying that she detected a weak signal and is trying to read it. Erk?
She asked if i felt breast tenderness? Er, no.
Dont even feel like typing any post initially. Sat at the laptop and stared blankly which url to go. Just wanna lie on bed and stare at any dvds.
Gosh. Still got one more week :(
June 6, 2012
Just buy it, la
Finally decided to buy the kit. One box got two tests.
Let's see. From the knowledge i've collected, if embryo transfer is Day 2 or 3 - Day 11 can test. Which is tomorrow.
But im scared. Shall do on Sunday or perhaps Monday?
The TCM physician said she sensed a weak signal from the pulse. Above that the pulse still okay and normal.
Thats the thing. I feel normal too. Haiz. Is it a cause for concern? Even if i call Raffles, they will say dont worry - as long no bleeding, all's good.
So confused.
Still got a week more to go. Homebound :(
Let's see. From the knowledge i've collected, if embryo transfer is Day 2 or 3 - Day 11 can test. Which is tomorrow.
But im scared. Shall do on Sunday or perhaps Monday?
The TCM physician said she sensed a weak signal from the pulse. Above that the pulse still okay and normal.
Thats the thing. I feel normal too. Haiz. Is it a cause for concern? Even if i call Raffles, they will say dont worry - as long no bleeding, all's good.
So confused.
Still got a week more to go. Homebound :(
Day 10: so far so good
Waiting turn to be acupuntured. So far, im feeling and behaving normal.
Haha.
Should buy that stick or not???
Haha.
Should buy that stick or not???
Day 9: To test or not?
Brekkie everyday must is the above Protein Shake + 4 egg whites.
These is to help me overcome OHSS. Alhamdullilah, till now i've got no symptom of OHSS. Looking forward for acupunture tomorrow. Hope, the pulse is good. Will only visit Dr Thong on 14 June. Nerve-wrecking. Been staying seated mostly still. Dont want to risk any precentage.
Im playing with the thought of buying several pregrancy kits tests to test at home. Of course, i would like to experience the happiness, of seeing the two lines on the pee sticks!
Should i?!!??!!!
Mat mentioned to just wait for the blood test. In case, i'll be dealt with a sad blow. How?!
I've been feeling normal. Except that im still walking slowly as i dont want to impose stress to the uterus if i walk as normal. Even going to Raffles is via cab instead of taking bus which i love to sit and plug in my ipod playlists of Kpop.
So far, all's good. Only debris of Crinone gel leftovers. Been taking my pills daily too. Only sometimes, i will feel slight backaches.
Should i test? Hee! But, i goggled that the test should be on Day 11. AH! Stress ah!
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