The 3rd~.

The last post to document the the 2nd round of IVF was in February 2011.

Today is 23rd May 2012.
Guessed what? im in the process of doing the 3rd IVF. Ya man. 3rd. Third. As much as i do not want, i proceeded. The last round - a frozen transfer of the embroys failed. Still had the OHSS and the Gynae said could be the lining was not strong enough to hold 'em embryos.

:(

To me, its just not meant to be. For what reason, only Allah knows. Only He knows the suitable time to give me, us His magical present.

I was devastated when i found out i was bleeding before the date due of bloodtest. I got some support from whatsapp-ing friends who said it could be due to implantation bleeding, etc.. but it wasnt. It was menses. IT was hard. Stabbing through the thickest wall of emotions.

Mat drove me out. Somewhere where i could just cry and cry. He did too but not like me obviously. Heh. We met up with the gynae and he just said to try again once the OHSS subsides. To us, we just carried on with our life. I placed that episode at the very back of my mind. To never remember it again, Mat did bring it up after 6months down the road. I just push it away.

We did TCM in July 2011. With hope that it could boost natural fertilization. I went through four sessions of TCM+acupunture at RH. Gulping day n night sachets of TCM medicines (yucks, it was bitter). At certain times, she gave me huge TCM pills - to me it looked more like rabbit's dump. LOL!

In February, the TCM physican (she has a record of making those who went for ivf having successful rate of natural fertilization) suggested we went back to IVF n do it together with TCM. Deep inside, i was devastated as i dont want to go throught the whole cycle yet again.

But who am i bluffing. Mat cant possibly be paying for rounds n rounds of TCM sessions. Each session which consists of 5 or 4 treatments costs almost $500. Mat's not earning gold bars leh.

I braced up and told him okay to proceed with our last installment of IVF since we can use co-fund from the government (our medisave) up till 3 times - we used twice, so why not just use the last try.

We did not go back to NUH. The gynae was good but Mat said to try RH since we can do it concurrently with TCM and since its nearer to my workplace - i can save up the taxi's money which i have to use for alternate morning going to NUH for bloodtest n scanning n back to my workplace.

We visited the Gynae in March, vomitted about the two ivfs cycle - the whats and nots. She was concern that it was not a success upon knowing we are young. Also that i had OHSS, twice. Nevertheless, she looked at our bloodtest and mentioned it should be not be a problem. She is confident of our case and gave assurances that our third will be a success.

We do feel a connection with her and hopefully she can work those 'magic'. She is after all, the senior(est) specialist gynae there and had achievement in the separation of the Korean conjoined twins in July 2003.

Sweet. It's not like it matters, her achievement in separating the twins since i dont even have one child. Heh.

She's motherly. Also very modern. We do not know she's a gynae during our first meetup as she doesnt look like one!

She started me on aspirin daily since March - to clean out the blood flowing (something like that). When April's flo comes, i called the Women's center. Collected a medicine called Gynera. Its a controlled pills that she wants me to take so that she can control the menses as well as the folicles growing.

She was sweet. We told her that we're going to Bali for a week so she timed when to consume Gynera so that she can monitor the folicle in time just after we are back in Singapore.

I had my menses just 3 days before Bali trip. Phew. Lucky not while there! I was more of looking forard that it doesnt come at all so i can SKIP the whole ivf cycle. But, sadly No :(

Just two week after i came back from bali, suddenly i was bleeding. It was different from the normal upcoming menses. No cramps. No puking. I just felt wet while sleeping and silly me as usual thought it was 'horny' time and its mucus (!) since it's my ovulation day! I was at my highest peak! How come menses?!!!

sucks.

Called them to report menses. Went down the next day to meet her and the start of IVF cycle. Le Sigh. She asked to stop Aspirin. Prior to that, they already told me to stop Gynera by the 13th May.

Today, the folicle have grown well above 10cm and a lot. The good news is, from the blood test - my E2 is not as high! It's only 4k+. She said 15k n above would deemed high and a high possiblility of having OHSS.

True.

My 1st cycle, i had over 18k. Which was alarming and the gynae team said if it gets too high, they might cancel the ivf as its risky with the OHSS. It didnt get higher as he reduced the dosage of GonalF. We proceeded but i had a very bad case of OHSS. Ah. Dont wanna relive that episodes which landed me in A&E :'(

The 2nd cycle, the E2 was 12k+. Possibly of OHSS still persists. It wasnt that as bad as the first but still on bedrest and bending over like an old woman. Heh.

This time, before we start on the 3rd cycle - Mat was very concerned and told the RH gynae that he doesnt wish me to go through OHSS again. Aww.. ily, dearest!

With the good news today, i hope this 3rd cycle will proceed much much better. With the possiblility of OHSS not recurring, im worried for the lining part. Hopes it will be thick so that the embryo(s) will be able to attach itself n stick there to bear fruit.

Insyallah :D

Been told, this time they are doing ICSI method. Hmm.. Not quite understand the difference of ICSI n IVF. But i hope the video will make it easier. Heh.

Click Here for ICSI.
Click Here for IVF
Click Here for Wikepedia of Intracytoplasmic sperm injection (ICSI)