Ms Flo came just nice, i should be able to welcome Ramadhan this Saturday. I think the body system is such a BFF with Ms Flo, it just doesn't want to skip any monthly meet ups. Haiz.
Well, what matters is im healthy and gaining weight. Yucks!
I must strive harder, skip more with more lunges and squats to get rid of few kilos before proceeding with the frozen transfer :)
July 19, 2012
July 16, 2012
Follow up
hello :)
Been one month plus since the last countdown. Well, if you can guess - it was a BFN result.
I remembered being so scared making way down to Raffles Hospital for the test. Couldn't sleep. The stain still persist. Told the nurse, she said not to worry. They are some patients who have spotting and got good results.
Okay, i got some hopes - i thought.
After that the blood test, we went for brekkie. Then, received call from nurse asking to come out and meet Dr Thong. *oh no* Waited. and waited. "Ariani"
Dr Thong smiled and asked how am i feeling. I cant answer. And she said "i know it must be nerve-wrecking these weeks having to wait for the result. im sorry but its a negative". Tears at the brink of falling. I somehow knew that it wont be positive since there is spotting.
Dr Thong was good and showed empathy which i didnt get from NUH. She went through how the whole IVF went through, the good thing - i wasnt sick and didnt experience OHSS at all.. The not so good was it could be the egg quality - man and female factor.
And then i just started tearing. The assistance quickly grabbed the tissue box. Dr Thong said "its ok dear, just let it go and cry. Go home and cry and you'll feel better"
Mr and i went somewhere, i cant remember where. We ate and went movie i think. We paused and talk about IVF but we didnt go somewhere to cry - like we did for the last IVF.
We somehow felt calm for this cycle. Sadness is there but we knew it wasnt meant to be. Yet. Surprisingly, the last day of my hospitalization leave before going off to work, i didnt cry a lot in bed. In fact, that night i didnt cry too. Maybe i was too tired since didnt sleep the night before. Since i made agenda to sleepover at my mum's house on that Friday - it helps.
As i told her about the result, i teared. Well, of course i want to tell her good news but i cant :'( When Abah came home from work, i didnt even say anything. He understood somehow.
And today, im still waiting for my period. We told each other to give it a rest and just do without having a stress on it. Think we are both tired. But we wont give up :)
Through this, we becomes even closer and stronger.
Been one month plus since the last countdown. Well, if you can guess - it was a BFN result.
I remembered being so scared making way down to Raffles Hospital for the test. Couldn't sleep. The stain still persist. Told the nurse, she said not to worry. They are some patients who have spotting and got good results.
Okay, i got some hopes - i thought.
After that the blood test, we went for brekkie. Then, received call from nurse asking to come out and meet Dr Thong. *oh no* Waited. and waited. "Ariani"
Dr Thong smiled and asked how am i feeling. I cant answer. And she said "i know it must be nerve-wrecking these weeks having to wait for the result. im sorry but its a negative". Tears at the brink of falling. I somehow knew that it wont be positive since there is spotting.
Dr Thong was good and showed empathy which i didnt get from NUH. She went through how the whole IVF went through, the good thing - i wasnt sick and didnt experience OHSS at all.. The not so good was it could be the egg quality - man and female factor.
And then i just started tearing. The assistance quickly grabbed the tissue box. Dr Thong said "its ok dear, just let it go and cry. Go home and cry and you'll feel better"
Mr and i went somewhere, i cant remember where. We ate and went movie i think. We paused and talk about IVF but we didnt go somewhere to cry - like we did for the last IVF.
We somehow felt calm for this cycle. Sadness is there but we knew it wasnt meant to be. Yet. Surprisingly, the last day of my hospitalization leave before going off to work, i didnt cry a lot in bed. In fact, that night i didnt cry too. Maybe i was too tired since didnt sleep the night before. Since i made agenda to sleepover at my mum's house on that Friday - it helps.
As i told her about the result, i teared. Well, of course i want to tell her good news but i cant :'( When Abah came home from work, i didnt even say anything. He understood somehow.
And today, im still waiting for my period. We told each other to give it a rest and just do without having a stress on it. Think we are both tired. But we wont give up :)
Through this, we becomes even closer and stronger.
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